A few years ago, I created a tumblr account, today I created a blog. This is for the small victories in life and the small failures.

Category: Looking Forward

To you assholes

who didn’t believe in me.

When I started working at the restaurant, a lot of people said I wouldn’t make it because they don’t think I’m a people person.

A lot of people thought I was doing poorly because they came in during the busy times.

But instead of getting my usual $15-$20 tips, I’ve been getting $30-$40. Which is awesome. Especially since it was super busy. And instead of each table giving me the usual $2-$3 tip. I get $4+. Today, I got a $10.00 tip.

Therefore I’m winning.

Suck it.



LoL Things That Piss People Off

I’ve been playing a lot of League lately. And I have compiled a list of polite gaming behavior that players should use.

  1. Don’t be an asshole.

That’s it. But some people don’t understand. So here are some easy guidelines:

  • Call your lane. If someone has already called that lane, call a different one. Switch it up. You want proficiency in all lanes and as a jungler–not just as bot lane. Support and ADC are bot lanes. 
  • Tell people if you’ve never played your character before. If this is your first time playing as Fiora (or other character), tell your teammates. They will appreciate it and be patient. Also, they will most likely give you tips on how to play her (or other character).
  • Call your missing enemies. A lot of people ping to call for assistance, to signal retreat, and most importantly if your enemy is mia and might be heading to gank. If you do it, your teammates will be grateful and they’ll start doing it (in most cases).
  • Leash your Jungler. A lot of people will either have 2 top and 2 bot, or 1 top, 1 jungler, and 2 bot. The jungler needs to be leashed. This means help them kill their first monster. Make sure they don’t die. Experienced junglers will ping you away, when they have a handle. Otherwise watch and help for a bit. But make sure you don’t kill the monster. That’s the jungler’s job.
  • Answer your teammates assistance calls. If you teammate dies, your teammate will feed an enemy–an enemy who will soon be too amped up to kill unless taken care of ASAP. This will hurt your team. Answer your teammates calls for help. And they’ll be more keen to answer your calls.
  • Don’t kill steal. If your teammate has ample health and is about to kill an enemy, don’t kill the enemy yourself. If you’re either in a mess of a battle with 4 or more champions and struggling, or if your teammate is low health, kill stealing is okay. But if they put up a fuss about it, apologize. 
  • Don’t put up a fuss about kill stealing. Seriously, don’t do it. Especially if you are playing a support or ranged character. Your main goal as support or ranged, is to support your team. You should get more assists than kills. Likewise, if your teammate is a support or ranged character, don’t be a baby. They will not have nearly as many kills as you, with some exceptions. Let them get a few kills. If kill stealing becomes a real problem, bring it up on chat. If the problem isn’t addressed then, report the player after the game.
  • Don’t be a dick in chat. If you’re playing with someone not as experienced or leveled as you, don’t repeatedly call them a noob, stupid, dumb, retarded, or any other names. Not even if they’re the asshole doing that and you want to call them an asshole. Report the player after the game for verbal harassment. Don’t harass them back. Don’t lash out at them either. Don’t spam the chat either. It’s distracting and could kill a teammate inadvertently while they’re looking at your 50 pings. Offer help if a teammate is feeding or looks like they need help. Don’t tell them to go fuck themselves or that they’re such a fucking noob and so stupid.  EVER. You have no idea what is happening on their side of the screen.
  • Don’t join a game if you have to be afk at any point. Bathroom breaks are okay during long deaths. Emergencies are okay. But don’t start a game then leave for a concert halfway through. It will cost your teammates the game. League will penalize you and your teammates will report you. Vomiting and such emergencies are okay. Sucky internet is okay.  But if you’ve been throwing up every 15-20 minutes, please don’t start a game. You won’t be able to finish it. And it will hurt your team. Likewise if you’ve been trying to playing a game 3-5 times and your internet is being funky and keeps disconnecting you, don’t start another game. It’s not cool to your teammates. They will be playing 4 against 5 most of the time. It’s just not cool.
  • Don’t be afraid to report players who are abusing you or are purposefully hurting your chances of winning. That’s why there’s a report button.
  • Honor and add players frequently. At the very least, honor the players you admire.

This has been how to be a good/neutral player on League of Legends.


The blood of artists.

Artist Blood


Like Shelley’s water

boating phobia.


Like Keats’ blood—

speckling cough.


Like Van Gogh’s ear

clipping razor.


Like Plath’s oven

burning flesh.


Like Cobain’s little

drug addiction.


Like Ledger’s alcohol

chased prescription.


Like heroin in the addict’s system,

sorrow laces the blood of artists.


When I was younger,

I mistook my blood for melancholy.


The greats all die young

my professor once told me.


P.S. This is one of my personal favorites.

Casino Night

Apparently I’m 8 years old again. When my mother and I were heading back to Ellensburg from apartment hunting in Seattle, she decided to take a random detour. Twas a grand adventure. Until we reached the Casino’s elevators: “ANYONE UNDER 21 MUST BE ESCORTED BY SECURITY”. That’s around the time where I decided “Fuck it, I’m out.” But my mother pushed. So we went upstairs. And of course they asked to see my ID. Fuck. That’s when the two security guards told us that the floor is for 21+. Basically I went to the bathroom because car trips. Then sat in the car while my mother played her favorite slot machine for an hour. On the bright side, I got half of her winnings.

As a side note, I was reading in the car. So I was pretty much 8 years old again, curled up in the passenger seat, reading a lovely book, waiting for my mother to return so we could leave. I was that child.

This guy was leaving the casino and he started up his motorcycle. Only his bike was so loud that the alarm from the car next to him started going off. So he shut the bike off. But then a car wanted to park in the spot. So he started the bike again and the car alarm started going off again.

And then of course we got lost trying to find North Bend from the casino. So we had to turn around in order to get food. And then sleep much sleep. After an episode of Red vs. Blue because YES.


Recent Things

  • I want to be a poet.
  • I want to go to Iowa for Grad school.
  • I borrowed this amazing book.
  • I started watching really amazing shows.
  • I go apartment hunting tomorrow.
  • My insomnia is back.

So I kind of accidentally rediscovered myself. I guess I have been blocking out certain aspects of myself subconsciously. And taking this Poetry Writing course has really brought back my creative side. It’s also part of the reason why I want to go to Grad School at Iowa State. Apparently my professor has connections. And I met the admissions director. And I’m super poor. But when I start applying places, I’m definitely going to try there. Oh. And speaking of Poetry Writing. I had no idea this class would be so great. It’s not even really the coursework, but the people. I think our class has gotten pretty close–even though we only meet once a week. And I’m going to be really sad when I move away. But I have new friends. And I ain’t about to disappear for good. Because I would like to keep some of those friends! Speaking of Poetry Writing friends, I have a book in my possession that is not mine. And no I did not steal it. But I might. But I won’t. (I’m obviously still debating if I want to give it back.)

Anyway, this book is the most amazing thing that I have ever read. It definitely looks like something I wrote, if I had had all that knowledge. This book is called How To Be a Person The Stranger’s Guide To College. And it is the truest book you will ever read. But apparently it ships film nerds with english nerds. And apparently neither know much about the other. There is a section called “Everything you need to know to successfully flirt with film nerds” and another section called “Spoiler alerts for big novels so you can flirt with english nerds as if you’ve already read them” and that’s it. No more flirting sections for anyone else. There’s this great Poetry section.  And a section about describing certain types of people and the old people one is particularly hilarious. Pretty much all of the sex section is just screwing with you. But in a really sarcastic and humorous way. It’s super perfect. There’s a great section on Feminism. I demand all of you read it. Because women are PEOPLE. (What!?)

Oh and I started watching The 100 and Red vs. Blue. And they are both amazing. The 100 reminds me of Lost but with super attractive people and sex and outer space. Red vs. Blue is full of very funny jokes. Kind of the same type of comedy as How To Be a Person.

Tomorrow I start the long and distant journey of traveling all the way to Seattle, WA. This where my mother, my future roommate, and I will all be touring apartments and deciding which apartment we would like to call home. I am super anxious but excited at the same time.

And apparently my rediscovery of myself has led to the rediscovery of my insomnia.

Here are some pictures from the book that you need to read to prove to you that you need to read it:

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P.S. Thank you fellow nerd who lent me this book. I definitely will maybe give it back to you.


P.P.P.S. The end of this book has a page purely dedicated to discussing the fonts they chose. I am super happy about this because I was actually curious about what fonts the used.

I have a job!

Why hello all fans and followers and hopefully friends. I have been super busy these past couple of weeks with classes and work and applying places. And I have some really exciting news to share with you all!

I am graduating in December! And afterwards, I am moving into an apartment with my fellow CWU graduate–in Seattle! I have a job at Macy’s and an interview at Regal Entertainment! I’m super excited and I’m looking for apartments and other jobs–which is why these posts are scattered and all over the place.

And I will be walking for Graduation! Which of course means that I will be having a graduation party! And I got a hair cut for interviews. And I may be getting my hair recolored before the move! And eeeeeeeeee!



P.P.S. And my best friend is visiting this weekend. And HAPPY.

I’m famous…probably

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So I’m kind of in the school newspaper. And they quoted me a lot. And I’m kind of famous. The most famous people are always on page 11–in my opinion. So I feel really cool.

Also, I have been super busy. So posts aren’t going to be always and forever, more like thin and scattered. Like I just got distracted for an hour and a half right now by looking for a roommate/room in Seattle. I got some good leads. And earlier, I applied to somewhere around 15 different places. So I’m like graduating. And moving. And growing up. And being independent. AND I’LL FINALLY GET MY CAT{S} BACK.

So yeah, I’ve been applying places, working, studying, sleeping, eating, and socializing. But the last one is basically clubs otherwise I’m too busy.

But I’m kind of famous. And awesome. And tired. And I stayed up way too late–again.


P.S. I don’t have a post script :O


P.P.P.S. If you know anyone who needs a roommate in the Seattle area, let me know!

100 Happy Days: Day 63


Today (well technically yesterday) I got the last piece of the puzzle for Monday after a rough day of once again cleaning up after my 20-year-old roommate. On Monday, I will be walking to the Wildcat Shop to purchase a Macbook Pro. A couple weeks ago I received the Manhattan skin that I will be using. And a couple days after that I received the keyboard skin with shortcuts, so I can be more efficient. Today (again technically yesterday) I got the screen protector for it. And on Monday I will be getting Adobe software and possibly a case for it.

I’m actually really excited about this. Also I found out I had saved my unfinished 7 page report last quarter so less work on that!


P.S. Learn more about 100 Happy Days here!

100 Happy Days: Day 55


Today started pretty horribly. I started to leave this morning but took a moment to retrieve so Ibuprofen because I was in pain. During that five second interval, my roommate decided to literally run out the door so that I would have to turn off all the lights and lock the door. Hurrah.

Then I accidentally found out that my adviser lied to me. You actually can’t apply for graduation the quarter you want to graduate. So I started freaking out. Because if I can’t get my degree then I can neither start my career nor apply to graduate school. So while I was hyperventilating I decided to email the degree evaluator. And she sent me an application for graduation and a petition for late application.

So my day got significantly better. My happy thought is that I actually might graduate when expected, I have two grad schools to apply for and a plan for when I move out after graduation.


P.S. Find out more about 100 Happy Days on their website!

100 Happy Days: Day 34

1. Aaron’s back! Of course not before I already figured out everything I needed help with! 2. I’m getting a mac soon! My friend from MPC, Eric Durkopp, came over and explained a bunch of techy stuff. 3. I am writing a pretty decent script. Another reason Eric came over is because I needed help figuring out a decent film idea that I wanted to write. Since he’s a film major who has taken that class, I figured he would be a really good person to ask. 4. I had actual human interaction today. 

So Aaron’s back. Which is really cool because I needed help. It’s a shame that Eric beat him to helping me. He did act as my textbook while I was actually writing my script. I even got a full on confession that he has indeed been parenting me behind my back. He’s actually really good at it because I never even noticed that he was doing it. I guess I should thank him for keeping me alive behind my back. Hmm.




After work, I found my coworker eating lunch. So we talked for a bit then we went to the financial aid. It was actual human interaction. It was super intense after a whole weekend of bed and homework.

Then Eric came over! So much interaction. He helped explain what all those terms meant and which laptop would get me the most benefits for the cheapest price. I have been wanting a mac for about 5 years now. So I’m super excited for this and super grateful that Eric could help me!

Not only did I need help choosing a mac, but I also needed help figuring out an idea for the script I had to write for my screenwriting class. I had been stuck on a romantic genre all week and it was really bugging me. Because I was stuck. And I didn’t want to write that. Eric, being a film major and having taken this class before, helped me flesh out what I could write. We figured out that psychological horror was definitely something I’m drawn to. And we were talking and I asked a question: What if a ginger was killing other gingers because he was trying to prove that he has a soul? And then BAM! I started writing as soon as he left.

Just kidding. I am not that motivated. I watch Penelope while thinking how to cause the psychological  damage to my main character that he would need to drive him to murder. And Penelope was fantastic. I’m gonna be honest, when you see a movie on Netflix talking about a girl born with a pig’s snout, you don’t expect much. But the actors/acting was perfect. They even made it seem like a less cheesy movie. I think it’s one of my top favorites!

I got a lot of human interaction today and it felt nice after being secluded.


P.S. Learn more about 100 Happy Days!

P.P.S. Crystal, I never believed he actually parented me until he confessed. I’m sorry. But I definitely believe you now.

P.P.P.S. Hey! Crystal has a blog here. I make a lot of appearances on it.